Herpes question____________?

Hi all. I have HSV-1 genital herpes. I have not had an outbreak in so long but I still take my meds. Since then, most guys have been reluctant to have sex with me and rejected me when they heard I had it. Some took the chance and we used condoms and they never got it. Now, I have been considering using the female condom, but I am not sure guys will understand or still want to do it. It's scary because if there's a guy I'm attracted to and he wants to "do it", I don't know how to tell him if we are just casual or...if I take out a female condom that he's never seen before. How can I get guys to understand this? I'm 21 and I feel like no guy will ever want me.