Where do I go from here? What's the point?

Medicine is always improving and people are always more understanding than you think. Personally, I would look into following a high raw diet, and getting your PH levels balanced to about 7.2 so that the outbreaks diminish. There's a site called Never an Outbreak which claims to have success with treating people with HSV-1 through natural means. Check it out and good luck. PS. The depression you're suffering from really needs some attention - honey, you're not worthless just because of this virus. You're more than just an STI sufferer.